" The war within"

I believe I was fighting "a war within" for 3 long years. It all started when my daughter was taken from me. Every day got harder and harder. It took everything I had not to give up. Every court date brought "false hope." Coming home with out her made me feel incomplete. I worked so hard doing everything they told me just to get her back. The best news I have ever received was when they told me I got full custody of her once again. It was the longest court hearing ever. I was sitting there like usual just listening, taking it all in when the judge said, " Jolene you have proved that you really can change, so I am giving you full custody of your daughter," it took my breath away I couldn't believe the day had come. I was so full of joy and happiness that I couldn't even talk. All I remember saying was," Thank you so much." I believe I was given a second chance; therefore, I don't take my life for granted anymore.

My worst fear

The thing I am most afraid of is losing my children. I know that it won't happen unless I do something really bad, but at times I get scared just thinking about it. I will never want to put my family through any of that again. After being clean for 3 yrs, I have realized how wonderful life can be without drugs. I've learned how to live my life on gods will; therefore, I will take it one day at a time. Since I had the chance to face the only real fear that I ever had, it makes it easier to not follow that same path again. I can't imagine not waking up every morning without my children beside me. My children are my life now and they mean the world to me. I Will never take them for granted again, I realized how blessed I am for being able to have children now. Although it isn't always fun being a mother, I wouldn't give it up for anything.

Alone at last

If I got to pick 3 things before being stranded on a deserted island I would take matches, because I know I would have a really hard time trying to start a fire. I can't see myself trying to rub two sticks together. The second thing I would bring would be a knife. A knife would come in handy in so much different ways, first I can cut up any bamboo are wood I may need to make some kind of house. I will also need a knife to protect myself from all kinds of wild animals that are roaming around out there. I think bringing a knife and some matches I could cut up and cook my food and eat a great meal. The 3rd thing I would bring with me would be a some kind of medical kit in case I get stung, bit, or scratched by something. I know there would be so much things that can cause infection out there. With a medical kit I would last longer knowing that If anything were to bite me I can clean it up as soon as possible. So even though I would be really lonely out there I know I will be alright with the things I brought.